New journeys.

Hi y'all. It has been quite some time since I have been able to sit down and write. Life has been speeding on by. I am currently working a new job as a receptionist which is pretty cool and I am starting school at CGCC tomorrow taking a few different classes so I can figure out which path I want to take. Also I have been very interested in photography. I love everything about it. I have captured some of my friends and they turned out beautifully. Everything is different now that I am graduated. All my friends have left for college. 3 of my best friends have left for UofA. I am excited to see where they go and each path they take. 5 of my good guy friends have left to Flagstaff some attending NAU others attending the local community college. Its crazy that we have all gone our separate ways. That's the thing about growing up...you make new friends go on new adventures, try new things. Everything is brand NEW. For me it is bittersweet; I'm terrified yet totally excited for all the different experiences and lessons I will learn. I am taking it day by day. I will have more down time to write which makes me very happy.

(here are some of the pictures I have taken)

open book

I am an open book for the most part which recently has been my biggest flaw. I tend to open up to the wrong people thinking that maybe they would care anout anything I had to say; but in reality my plans, aspirations, feelings, thoughts, weaknesses were a big joke. I think generally as people at some point we have become vulnerable and opened up to the wrong people. generally the ones with a nice mask on. We begin to trust the wrong people with our thoughts and word, 99% of the time we have grown so desperate to be heard that we settle for the enemy; who is only there to tear your dreams apart. My friend had made a good point during class: "Don't go out searching for someone to help you and be a friend because those people are always the ones to screw you over. The ones that will truly be there are people who you least expect and ones who feel the same pain, and have gone through the same trials and tribulations, and have the same faults as you. we tend to reach out to people who knows what its like to go through something. Just remember you aren't alone, there are people who face obstacles everyday of their lives.

My Rescue;

We all want to change something about ourselves? But why? Is it because we don't like ourselves? Because we aren't perfect? What is the meaning of P E R F E C T? We all have this picture in our head of what we need to be and want to be. This song is inspiring. Think of things that inspire you and look in the mirror and look at yourself. Look at your beauty and find your self. No one is ever able to bring you down and make you feel like you aren't special. We are all sent here for The Rescue.

CHALLENGE: 1:We all see people who have problems in their lives and its hard for them to keep it in, and then we see the ones who have problems in their lives but don't speak out. Tell them everyday that there will be a change in there life and that they are truly great. Let them know you care. Pray for the ones with depression, doubt, fear, grief, pain, memories, uncertainty and insecurities. We all have bumps in our life and obstacles to face. Be the one to help get past that. Rescue for Change.

You are worth it,  every word you speak, every  breathe you take,  no matter what. flaws you have big or small, you are worth so much more than you think. Here lately i have been very good at telling myself that I am a worthless person and will never amount. to anything...we never truly realize how special we really are, but I see the good in ever person and I see how incredible people are. and whenever I hear someone bash themselves it breaks my heart. We are all to hard on ourselves,.

 CHALLENGE:  2.When you wake up in the morning look in a mirror and just stare; dont pick yourself apart don't focus on the flaws, just stare. Repeat "I am worth it"  over and over..even if you don't believe the first few times you say it. Words have a huge impact on us, what you say reflects the type of person you are, words can make and break situations. If you speak negative words and have negative thoughts,  you will lead a negative life. But if you walk around and say positive things and have positive vibes you will see a difference in the way you feel, and the way people fell when they are with you.  Do that challenge every morning, and you will see a change in yourself .

REMEMBER. you have a purpose and are on this earth for a reason, so go out and be spotaneous and loud, live your life and be happy and have no worries.

-& that's all she wrote.